O que está a acontecer a minha vida?

Eu sei que nao sou a única a sentir-me assim, mas hoje é um daqueles dias em que eu queria adormecer, fazer um reset, e depois acordar, completamente limpa, sem problemas, sem dilemas, sem nada... talvez fose melhor mesmo o nada do que isto que é a minha vida.. Quando vai ser aquele dia em que vou poder dizer que tudo está bem, e que sou uma pessoa realizada?

I'm felling so bad, so sad. I'm feeling alone, alone in the dark.



Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that aint real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Oh and I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last change to feel again .

(Broken strings - James Morrisson)

Transmite (quase) perfeitamente o meu estado de espírito.

Talvez um dia entendas que estavas errado...

Don't give up - há dias em que precisamos de uma força...

Nada melhor que uma boa música para relaxar, acalmar, e pensar na vida...Talvez a seguir já consiga encontrar um motivo para ela existir...

In this proud land we grew up strong
We were wanted all along
I was taught to fight, taught to win
I never thought I could fail

No fight left or so it seems
I am a man whose dreams have all deserted
Ive changed my face, Ive changed my name
But no one wants you when you lose

Dont give up
cos you have friends
Dont give up
Youre not beaten yet
Dont give up
I know you can make it good

Though I saw it all around
Never thought I could be affected
Thought that wed be the last to go
It is so strange the way things turn

Drove the night toward my home
The place that I was born, on the lakeside
As daylight broke, I saw the earth
The trees had burned down to the ground

Dont give up
You still have us
Dont give up
We dont need much of anything
Dont give up
cause somewhere theres a place
Where we belong

Rest your head
You worry too much
Its going to be alright
When times get rough
You can fall back on us
Dont give up
Please dont give up

got to walk out of here
I cant take anymore
Going to stand on that bridge
Keep my eyes down below
Whatever may come
And whatever may go
That rivers flowing
That rivers flowing

Moved on to another town
Tried hard to settle down
For every job, so many men
So many men no-one needs

Dont give up
cause you have friends
Dont give up
Youre not the only one
Dont give up
No reason to be ashamed
Dont give up
You still have us
Dont give up now
Were proud of who you are
Dont give up
You know its never been easy
Dont give up
cause I believe theres the a place
Theres a place where we belong

(Don't give up - Peter Gabriel & Kate Bush)

Dilema

Escolhas, escolhas, escolhas.... Há alguma coisa mais dificil do que fazer uma escolha? E porque é que a escolha feita nunca me parece a melhor opçao.. ou quando até é a melhor para mim, tem sempre de deixar alguém magoado para trás... porquê? Porque é que o certo é sempre o mais difícil... Porque é que o melhor para mim é o pior para as outras pessoas? Porque é que eu nao posso simplesmente dizer a alguém: Vá, escolhe tu por mim!! E tudo se resolvia... talvez fosse mais fácil.. porque parece que toda a gente sabe o que é o melhor para mim.. Só eu é que não..
Estou tão farta.. Porque é que eu sou assim?? A eterna indecisa, a eterna insegura... Porque é que eu vi Afinal o que quero eu para mim?? Não é obvio? Para quem vê de fora é...